We got the NAM yesterday...The doctor told me to only put it in when he eats (with nothing keeping it in so I would have to somehow hold it while I feed him?) for a week!! Long story, but basically the experienced doctor broke her arm and hasn't come back for about 8 weeks..so we are having to go to the doctor she was training. Usually they tell you to put the NAM in only when he eats for like a day or 2..not a whole WEEK! So I tried holding the NAM while I feed him..when I took it out to burp him and then put it back in he cried and cried. So I thought I would take it out when he eats and put it in when he's not eating so he can get used to it without something else making it hard to eat..so I tried that at the next feeding...he gagged, and then exploded with what looked like his whole feeding. Of course I cried...the NAM is supposed to HELP the feedings not undo everything I worked so hard to get in him! So after he calmed down and I fed him again (without the NAM) and gave him some tummy time I put the NAM back in and held it and tried to distract him when he started to gag. I kept it in for 20 mins doing this and left it out the rest of the night. I decided I was going to start taping it on him and leave it in all day today..so far he spit up like crazy again this morning but this time I didn't take it out..I left it and rocked him. Every once in a while he will fuss and gag but I'm keeping it in! It is really hard to watch though..I just want to take the thing out, run it over with my car and call it a day. But, it will do a lot of good in the long run and keep him from having to go through even more surgeries so we are just going to have to be strong together, take it one day at a time, and trust in Jesus...I really don't know how I could get out of bed in the morning without him. Thank you so much for your prayers I know they are what's carrying us through this.
Wrapped in the towel like a sweet burrito :) He loves bath time.
First mow hawk...you can barely see it (I don't have much hair..)
There is truly no way to explain the meaning to the name Judah Ethan, unless I tell you about the one who gave me life, gives me strength, is the reason I take every step and every breath. He is the only one who has truly always been there for me and promises to never leave nor forsake me. He is my provider, healer, comforter, father, and my friend. There aren't enough words to sing His praises! I wish there was some way to give Him the glory and honor He deserves but He deserves perfection and I am far from it. I dedicate my whole life to Him. If He never does another thing for me He is still and will always be worthy of all my praise! I named my son Judah Ethan because Judah means to praise, Ethan means consistently or steadfast. His name is a reminder of how good God is. No matter what we go through God is still God and He deserves everything we have to give. I want my son's life to glorify God in everything...even his name :) I dedicate my son, my whole life, everything I have to Jesus.
Psalm 34: 1-4 I will bless the Lord at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth.My soul shall make her boast in the Lord: the humble shall hear thereof, and be glad.O magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt his name together.I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.